Yesterday... stupendous news together with monumental environment

I was confused.. or i just confused myself..
should i take i positively or negativtly..
how i suppose to react to this..follow the flow or against it ???
i tried to take it as positive as i can but seems that not what they want me to translate the ideas..

I'm terribly lost now..
Day by day comes going to be tough..
harder than it could see..

they hate me but why still keeping me ?
maybe its a kind of mortification they want we to face..
castigate me untill i barely can think which right which is wrong...

Today.. i'm going to be

Miffed..
Disgruntled...
Forlorn...
and Morose..