I’m been kick out to far far away land...

Lately things not going into my way...

I was hoping for happy ending

But...i was hopeless...

And worst case scenario...

I’m back to 5 yrs ago when he passed away...

I feel that pain again...

Feel so damn lonely... even i have lots of amazing friend around me...

Which make me laugh... make me smile... turns me happy...

But the moment

I lay down on my sofa bed...

Closing my eyes...

And his face starts to appear...

And I started to cried and cried...

Unstoppable tears...

I can’t sleep...

I closed my eye... i can see his face... and i started to missed him again...

Then I have to open my eye...

But when I open my eye...

I go to recall all those good and bad time with him...

I convince myself that

I had move on...

I had opened my heart for someone...

To loved and be loved...

I guess I missed those chances with Hasbi...

I feel so empty...

Sitting in very deep dark place...

With no concern how much times

That had passed through me...